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[25 Oct 2005|03:49pm] |
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Ugh i just hate how i cant be happy for more than three days. I actually had some hope after that New Hampshire trip, and now its just gone alld own the drain. I hate my life. And it sucks even more because my best friend (kadeem) moved. and hes having a crappy time. we were talking on the phone, and it ended with him telling me to shut up and me hanging up.
Ugh i hate this, at least last year we had out bright colorful conversations. Now it seems like theres nothing left in my life.
Im failing in school, i used to be bright.
Im getting sick of living like this. I cant take it anymore. I just cant
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[30 Aug 2005|07:51pm] |
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Okay things are not lookin up as i was hoping
1st period: Ranani, he seems like one of those hard but fair teachers. I have like two friends in this class.
it shouldn't be to bad (other than the fact i suck at math)
2nd: Hanney, british english teacher (accent too), a little hyper but seems like is gonna be easy. Only 4 guys in the class (including sean cross, ugh) idk not really any friends here, but i have aquantinces
3rd: Catalde, This guy is a weirdo, i dont like him very much. no friends in this class. is prolly gonna be easy though. (SS)
4th: Spanish, Bonomi, from the start the guy has shown himself to be a weirdo by dancing to Doo Wop, he seems like hes gonna be a stupid grader and unfair. idk at least Han can spice up this class a bit
5th: Ugh, child development, 27 kids and i am the only guy. yeah its kinda embarassing. teachers annoying too.
6th: gym, this isn't too bad, i have a few friends here
7th: bio, i have like 1 or 2 friends over here, yea the guy scares me too.
oh and the lunch wave sucks, almost everyone from my old tables gone. stupid school
and update. yea i got rejected last week but w/e
yeah and my minds been off track. my tennis is really starting to suck (i was becoming sooo good in mid july) so idk if ill make the team this year. and ugh idk what to do, i had no time to relax during summer, too busy fighting with parents (fuck them). so yea
idk what to do
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[08 Aug 2005|02:13pm] |
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So yeah yesterday i had a small party with me chris sepanta lacey yulia and mehdi. it was alright, not as fun as the last party, but still fun.
Yea and life sucks.im still in a period of an on and off depression that started almost a year and a half ago. And recently ive been down again, even though i have occasional fun times with friends, im always depressed afterwards. and now to why im usually down
1. my parents: i honestly hate them, im not getting into why
2. im lonely: look above^, it feels like i have no family, although i have my sisters they sometimes really get on my nerves. Plus it's been over a year since my last relationship, sure after it i was down but now its getting really annoying. i dont have anyone and its killing me. also third i feel like i have no on to talk to, sure i have some goood friends, but there really is no one i can tell much
3. im paranoid: i always feel like everyone is against me, or doesn't like me, or my friends talk behind my back though. i can be pretty distrustful at times. but this is relatively small compared to my other problems
4. as other people say: im too hard on myself, i guess its correct, but having high standards was never a bad thing, im even more upset when i dont acheieve what id like to.
5. dissapointment, it seems like no matter how hard i try to be a good person, everything bad still happens to me. it feels like life is always working against me
those are only a few, the rest are to myself. but the loneliness one would def be the biggest factor. ugh i dont know what to do. somebody help?
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[22 Jun 2005|01:00pm] |
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ok i haven't pdated for a while. sooo anyways. schools over. worst year of my life. today is one of the worst days of my life. my fights with my parents stopped me from reaching my goals. So i failed this year. my grades turned out mediocre and my life couldnt be worse. I really HATE THEM. no joke or exxagerations. i hate them. (parents)They are a bunch of fucking assholes who are selfish and care only for themselves.
anyways...
I Look forward to a productive and effective summer
1.Get 6-pack (these are killers)
2.Hang out with friends more
3. get rid of my procrastination problem
4. Perfect my farsi reading skills, and learn the cursive too
5. find job, $800 by the end of summer
6. read these books
A Peoples History of the United States
Stupid White Men
British Imperialism
Fast Food Nation
On Television
The Ethics of liberty
Capitalism and Freedom
The Death of the West
The Prince
The Republic
The Old Man and the Sea
Of Mice and Men
The Kite Runner
Embroideries
The Good earth
The Fountainhead
Long i know.
wish me luck in achieving them
i have nothing else to say
bbye
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[25 Apr 2005|04:15pm] |
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I found this thing and decided to have a little fun with it :-P
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| answer at least the top 6 |
[06 Mar 2005|11:08pm] |
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
WHAT ABOUT US:
» Who are you?
» Are we friends?
» When and how did we meet?
» How have I affected you?
» What do you think of me?
» What's the fondest memory you have of me?
» How long do you think we will be friends?
» Do you love me?
» Have I ever hurt you?
» Would you hug me?
» Would you kiss me?
» Would you fuck me?
» Are we close?
» Do you wish I was cooler?
» On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
» Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
» Am I loveable?
» How long have you known me?
» Describe me in one word.
» What was your first impression?
» Do you still think that way about me now?
» What do you think my weakness is?
» Do you think I'll get married?
» What about me makes you happy?
» What about me makes you sad?
» What reminds you of me?
» What's something you would change about me?
» How well do you know me?
» Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
» Do you think I would kill someone?
» Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
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| hola |
[24 Feb 2005|11:43pm] |
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hey everyone, its like 11:43. got back from georgia last night. my overall trip was fun. hung out w/ my friend foroud who i hadn't seen in like 2 years. yeah it was good, but i didn't do much sightseeing as i wanted. plane ride was smooth, tried to read clear and present danger by tom clancy. i didn't get past the 5th page, sooo boring. i also read ON the Run while i was there. it was pretty good about 2 kids whos druggie father was connected to the mob. yeah i'd recomend it. i also read the communist manifesto, can u believe it it was only 44 pages. today was ok, i went to tennis and forgot my shorts, i had to borrow my teachers pants. yeah i also fixed my comp. also i watched parts of braveheart. omg best movie ever! if u haven't go and see it. anyways im out cya all soon.
~sina
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[17 Feb 2005|04:13pm] |
today nothing interesting happened. i finished all the Shahs men yesterday. good book. it really touched me and made me think about my country. for details about the book just ask me. anyways i go to georgia tommorow. finally a break from my parents. well i g2g to tennis soon. peace out
~sina
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| hello |
[15 Feb 2005|05:25pm] |
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today was an interesting day, actually not really. just woke up and went to school, but they cancelled the latebus last minute. so i had to walk all the way home, not exactly though, i got picked up by this kindergarden bus with all these little kids there and got a ride home. i failed my spanish quiz probably and im gonna screw up on math on thursday. somebody help me. anyways ill be off
and happy late valentines day everyone
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ok toda sucked. first i woke up late and my dad was yelling at me for like 2 hours until he drove me. then i go to the office to check in and they tell me i have to go to the main school office so i walked all the way back and i didn't have my passport today so i got a big lecture. then at lunch kadeem threw cream cheese at me staining my shirt and making it look like i jizzed on my shirt. then 7th period i recieved a rose. i was shocked when i saw who it was from with an i love you on it. the whole class was staring at me and i , being a shy guy, was blushing like mad. hey i cant help it. after a lot of pressure from people i found out that thankfully, it was a prank from salinas friends. now i just got back from the gym. ok
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| today was a sucky day |
[14 Feb 2005|06:54pm] |
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ok toda sucked. first i woke up late and my dad was yelling at me for like 2 hours until he drove me. then i go to the office to check in and they tell me i have to go to the main school office so i walked all the way back and i didn't have my passport today so i got a big lecture. then at lunch kadeem threw cream cheese at me staining my shirt and making it look like i jizzed on my shirt. then 7th period i recieved a rose. i was shocked when i saw who it was from with an i love you on it. the whole class was staring at me and i , being a shy guy, was blushing like mad. hey i cant help it. after a lot of pressure from people i found out that thankfully, it was a prank from salinas friends. now i just got back from the gym. ok
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[06 Feb 2005|06:33pm] |
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yeah i went with Sepanta to New Haven today. we had some wings (mmmmmmmm). i also had pizza and mousse cake. yeah good meal but ill probably wake up with a bloated bell tommorow. anyways after we ate we waled past the car and we got lost. our parents were looking for us but they couldn't find us. we had to go from store to store until some guy let us use his cell phone and we finally found each other. other than that it was fun. i have hw to do so later
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[05 Feb 2005|04:07pm] |
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hello friends. this is my first entry. i know its kinda shabby but ill work on it and it'll get better. anyways im in new york right now with my sister. im gonna come home in like 6 hours. see you all later
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